So I've been trying to be more productive with writing. I'm committed to making a career out of being a science fiction author. The book I'm working on now I wrote a first draft of when I was about nineteen, the one I plan on finishing next I began shortly afterwards. I did the math, at 500 words a day, I can write 50 000 words (about the length of my novel) in 4 months. Why has it taken me over a decade?
Oh I did some other stuff in between, finished university, got married, had two kids. I also logged a lot of hours of Tetris, Wii, Farmville, Farm Frenzy, and whatever else happened to be my game of the week. Occasionally I did slightly more productive things. I painted, I made flash cartoons, I blogged, I wrote for Today's Parent Toronto (thank you, mom). For a while I wanted to work for a magazine, but ideas for articles don't come to me the way ideas for science fiction stories do. I sent one query, which I wrote in magazine writing class. It was kindly rejected.
I now have real excuses. Adorable excuses named William and Jadzia, who demand my attention before I can complete a sentence. As I was writing this post, William came to me crying because he had somehow put a chair on his toe. Jadzia is sitting on my lap right now colouring. There are pen marks all over her arms and mine. I no longer have long stretches of uninterrupted time to myself. I squandered those in my youth. I think my mother tried to warn me. She has 28 books published. I'd be happy with one or two.
I'm more committed now than I have ever been. My book will be done by February 4th. It's good enough to be published and I won't give up until it is. And I won't stop writing, I will finish this book and the next and the next. I will outline and plan. I will sell. I will be so ambitious and obnoxious that you won't recognize me. I am talented. I'm no longer going to sheepishly pretend that I'm not. I'm no longer going to be so afraid of success that I won't even try.
BTW: To my friends and family: after February 4th, be on my case. I recognize that selling the book will be the hard part, and I'll need lots of encouragement to stay on track. Thanks.